Curious…. Aside from adjusting to awareness of and unmasking your autism, possibly at the same time, I’m getting a sense of control being an issue. Structure in life is often another hallmark of autism. Sometimes it branches off into OCD and perfectionism, with things having to be just right.

Perhaps exploring mindfulness and ways to counterbalance the structure might help some. Below is my older article on mindfulness and how it has helped me in some surprising and simple ways:

The Gift That Keeps On Giving

https://jimirion.medium.com/the-gift-that-keeps-on-giving-c856ed968562