Pardon as I don’t have the membership, but I still wanted to share specific writing that may have relevance here. It is related to the autistic perception of socioeconomic integration and the passage of time. Rather than preface too much of it, I will say it spans as young as your youngest age in this article…

… to your age now.

Something I recognized when I connected the patterns of fear to occupational difficulties despite my demographic being what it is and more likely to succeed.

“Time to Connect the Patterns”
https://jimirion.medium.com/time-to-connect-the-patterns-d055874c6e18

At the end, though, be sure to check out the hyperlinked companion piece that goes with the above article, “Autistic Chronophobia Theory.”

I’ve had a lot of strong feedback including from one PhD autism researcher, one PsyD psychodynamic therapist, and a subject matter expert in psychology.

What wonders lie between the lines of patterns that intertwine our autistic lives. So much has yet to be discovered.