This. This would save me too. But as a result of my autism being neglected for over two decades, I never integrated into society. I’ve been living with my parents still but they are getting close to needing to sell this house.

In your case, not so much because autism was neglected, you didn’t achieve adequate social or, more importantly, economic integration. It kept getting disrupted. As a result, you never had stability to feel safe or positive. Suicide never went away as it never has for me.

That’s what my Discussing Suicide article covers. A person’s mental health needs that in life. Or, we’ll suffer in multiple ways on the inside that few take for granted..